Antsy

It's Sunday. We've worked the past couple days at outdoor festivals, so maybe it's the heat talking, but...we are SO done here! Our apartment is so small. So small that there's not enough room to change our minds. But seriously, folks, we've outgrown the space, and the neighborhood (of this sixteen unit building) is going downhill. Beer is a staple and it's an expectation to smell weed if you take a walk outside at night...sometimes during the day. I'm not against hanging out with a few friends, or partying, even. It just shouldn't be your everyday goal in life. And these people are not college kids - they're semi-employed adults with kids. Some days I pick up the trash on the grounds because I want the place where we live to look nice, at least. Some days I pass by and refuse to pick up the trash that these people so disrespectfully leave in the yard (and are teaching their kids, by the way, that this is ok). A lot of them hang out together, so they feed each others habits and validate their lifestyles together. Time to move on. The BIG question is: Where???

I am now a graduate and ready to work. Shelby has an awesome (let me repeat: AWESOME!) job that has great benefits while she saves the planet. There's chance of relocation and, even if she doesn't move to a different territory/position, her territory is big enough for us to move around in. We want a farm. A yard. Chickens. A BIG garden. Space. Goats. Land. We want to be able to drink coffee on the porch in the morning and have drinks on the deck, with friends, by a fire at night. We want to live in a barn and have room to run around...inside. So ready. SO ready! We feel it - we've had this feeling before. We're on the brink of something big. We're starting to pack because, no matter what, we're moving somewhere. But it's more than that. We feel we're being prepped for the next big stage in our lives.We're in motion, we're getting ready, and we're antsy. It's frustrating to not know where we're going, but we know that we're going somewhere, and we trust the winds of destiny. I feel better writing about it. I'll feel better once we clear some stuff out to storage and have a little more room to move, which seems a little overwhelming at the moment.

We're going to visit Chittenango, NY next week. It will be the first time in several years that we've been to Shelby's hometown, and we're all very excited about it. Upstate New York is beautiful, especially at this time of the year, and we'll also be visiting friends and family that we haven't seen for awhile. We'll definitely stop by Eddie's Restaurant and Chittenango Falls, and probably Turning Stone Casino (right, Shelby?). It will be a fun vacation and a nice distraction from our here life for a moment. I doubt I'll be writing before then unless there's breaking news, so I will update this blog after our NY vaca :)