I've been a bit grumpy lately despite everything. I have been working on catching up with household chores and packing/storing/reorganizing. We finally got one of the bookcases out of the bedroom, which will go to Bess or Goodwill. We took four dining table chairs, a stool, curtain rods, and boxes (inherited books from Bess and Eve, Shelby's pitcher and bowl find, and other odds and ends) to storage - probably about the end of downsizing. We all have dental and doctor appointments set up, so all I need to do now is set up eye exams for Shelby and me. I've sorted through the storage totes and all the other stuff on our bedroom shelves, kinda, just to make more sense of it all. I feel comfortable with what's been done, and comfortable that we can keep it up easier now until we're able to escape. I can't help but feel closed up in our apartment, holed up away from the rest of the neighborhood but not away from the negative energy of this place. I don't like being grumpy, and I know that positive actions work better than wallowing in my own darkness...but I think sometimes you just gotta let yourself be pissy. But...Gage's birthday is this weekend, and Shelby got a gig in Philadelphia next week which has evolved into a getaway for us and the three little kids. Kait will have the home to herself to study in peace and quiet. We leave Saturday and come back Friday. Another "vacation", though Shelby's gotta work, for this summer! I will also be working on finishing my Consortium application, and maybe even get some writing, or other application stuff done for Teachers-Teachers. Baby steps forward, setting ourselves up...right?
School starts for the kids on the 24th...just a few weeks away. It's been a busy summer, and definitely transitional. I guess we should appreciate that we're all at home at the moment, before the rest of our life starts and we're all working and going to school. Looking forward to the future, and trying to make the present work for us :)
you will get there soon, i promise!
ReplyDeleteDon't be Mr. Grumpy. I KNOW that it is frustrating - I'm in the same boat as you and right now it feels a little like that boat is sinking and all we are doing is tossing out buckets filled with water left and right. Time baby...we just need to be patient and wait for the right time to move forward in our great adventure. Look at all we've done this summer...a stay-cation at my parents' house to start the summer off right, a trip to NY, camping and now we are off to Philly for a week. You've done an amazing job gutting this house (without leaving us with just an empty shell...and packing up all the unnecessary things. You graduated from WSU - AMAZING! You got your teaching license, we just got your diploma, it looks beautiful in that frame and cannot wait until it is hanging on the wall along side mine. I have my moments too (more than you) but if we look at all the cool, fun, amazing things that we've done in just the past two months...life is changing for us, you can feel it and so can I each moment here just helps us with building our credit and putting back a little money (while still being able to create a fun time for the kids)...so when we are for sure ready to make the leap - we'll just jump without hesitation...
ReplyDeleteWe have had a great summer - lots of cool things to do and we've accomplished alot. I know we'll get there - I have faith in that. It's hared not having the clear, obvious direction that we've seemed to have in the past. But we do know more precisely what we want and what we don't want, and basically how to get there. Thanks for the encouragement, and thanks for getting us this far!
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